As of now, I am guilty of so many insane addictions in my life. I’m now in the process of self-reflection… probably to see if I am still mentally healthy or not.
My latest on the list are as follows:
1) Twilight Series- I am now reading the series a second time around… I was telling my sister that this Twilight fanaticism seems to be a never ending cycle for us… Watch the movie, read the books, read midnight sun, read the outtakes, watch the New Moon trailer, watch Robert and Kirsten in Youtube, then do everything all over again… crazy, crazy…

2) Boys Over/Before Flowers- Admit it guys, I am not the only one who went gaga over Meteor Garden way back 2003 or 2004… Well, I truly believe that this Korean version is way better… why? well for starters, the F4 here looks cleaner and richer, hehehe (sorry Jerry Yan fans…)  I have planned to do marathon viewing over the weekend but ended up being utterly frustrated after purchasing 2 yucky pirated DVD’s of the series.  I wish to get  an original copy soon.

3) Ebay, Ebay, and more Ebay- My CR and laptop seem to be a package deal nowadays… I have developed a nasty habit of typing and working in my new found comfort zone- My CR… this may gross out other people but I don’t mind. I feel mentally awake inside the restroom- with of course, my coffee and my smokes jolting my brain cells and urging me to think… Well back to ebay, when I am not in the mood to blog, I bid in ebay… let me correct that, I heavily bid in ebay… After an endless stream of packages from Air21, 2go and JRS express, I found myself being financially crippled- with expenses significantly outweighing my net income for the month (and still I’m wondering why my husband is giving me a warning look already…) Now, I am pondering on the idea of selling the piles of material belongings that I have back in ebay.

Well guys, I know we all have our own dirty little pathetic distractions in life but as I have realized… we have to keep our reasonable senses at bay and give ourselves a little nudge on the head if we go overboard already (so so like me)…

As with many teenagers and teenager-wanna be’s right now, I am now officially and insanely hooked with Twilight… I could not resist buying my own boxed set of Stephenie Meyer’s masterpiece. Believe me, the feeling of satisfaction was nothing like buying a new Zara, Mango or Kamiseta dress… it is utterly beyond words… magical perhaps… like I now have my own vampire Edward with me…. Insane…

Reading the Twilight saga has indeed been worth the many sleep deprivations I have had in the last 4 weeks. Maybe, the thing that made me really guilty was the fact that I stole away some time that was supposedly meant for my children and work (By the way, I am now a non-bum… I accepted a teaching assignment in another school). Anyway, I really have the tendency to be easily addicted at something. I can still vividly recall how I fell maddeningly infatuated with Jo In Sung of Memories of Bali and Jerry Yan of Meteor Garden… At 31, however, I have now learned to discriminate my thoughts… like for example realizing that my fanaticism with Edward Cullen is not the same as that of Robert Pattinson.

Part of it is that I really love to read a good novel once in a while. I would gladly zoom in the pages of my favorite fiction than read inspirational materials. I get a knack out of following the lives of make-believe characters… crying with them and feeling their pain, laughing or fuming with anger with them, and of course, relishing the kilig moments, as if I am really a part of the story … Insane again…

Right about now, I am enjoying my second round of Twilight madness… squeezing in the opportunity once in a while amidst my chaotic but happy world of reality… These few and stolen moments elate me in ways that are indescribable… Not really alienating me from what is real but more of appreciating everything that I have. I have my Edward in the person of my loving and funny Paulo, I have my own Cullens, I have my Reneesmes’… what more can I ask for? I mean, really, when I think about it, life could not be much better than this…