A few days from now, I will be saying hello to another year of my existence.  I want to relax and say “What the heck, it’s just another birthday.” But honestly, I am pretty much freaked out.  For one, I will be crossing the “calendar borderline” thingy- or as we Filipinos put it, wala na ako sa kalendaryo… Geeez… I am turning 32 and as far as I’m concerned, I have not attained anything really worth boasting for.  To add to this, I am feeling the lose of youth- – more responsibilities, more health problems, more physical deterioration… Oh, I know I should not worry about this…worrying adds to the gravity of the situation and I do not want to compound it.  My rational brain prompts me to embrace another era of my life… to work my butt off while at the same time, enjoy what life has to offer.  Thankfully, I am slowly but imminently gaining another perspective in life… that of paving a better and brighter future for my kids.  I guess I am steering away from a life of self-centeredness and moving towards a more fulfilling and worthy one… As regards to achieving something to be proud of, well, besides being a good wife and mother, I have yet to figure that one out…. 

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